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I was facing demons that I thought wouldn’t last forever. But instead of alcohol, I’ve relapsed again and it feels like I’m od-ing on depression and anxiety. It hasn’t gotten any better as it should’ve.

My soul hurts and I feel empty almost everyday. I just want the pain to end and never feel again. Everything just hurts. I’d do anything to feel happy. I want to feel alive.

I wasn’t always good to you as I should’ve been. And maybe that’s what I’ll have to live with for a long time. Sometimes I think I’m better off dead than being here. What’s the purpose of living anymore if I’m already dead.

It’s as if my spirit just lingers around and my corpse is not even in tact. I feel so hallow. And I was right. Life isn’t meant for everyone.

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